I had a last chance to call to see how you were doing, to stop by, to see the baby, to do more than say we’d get together again soon; it passed and I didn’t know it until I got the phone call today. I keep going through my hard drive. Searching.

I know there was a picture of you happy, smiling with your baby girl. I can’t find it, I know I didn’t take it long ago. I remember meaning to e-mail it, so you could see yourself as I see you. I didn’t know it’d be the last.

My heart isn’t letting me believe what is on the news and in the paper. It doesn’t make any sense.

Someone tell me I wasn’t blind to a cry for help.

I think of your baby, cold, in last night’s rain. You had hoped it would snow.

Did you know that we hear every train that roars by?

Were you frightened? Sad?

We are.


#1 Margo on 01.18.08 at 2:40 am

Oh Heather, what beautiful words. What a heart breaking reality. It’s hard to believe something so devastating could happen here. My heart goes out to her family. I wish I could have known her. She must have been a beautiful person. She and River are with Jesus right now. I wish knowing that could heal the hearts of those that knew her, but I know that’s not enough… It’s just so hard to believe.

#2 Holly on 01.18.08 at 3:21 am

((Heather)) I am not sure what is going on, but I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

#3 Rachel on 01.18.08 at 4:15 am

Thank you for writting this. I hope River did not have to suffer. I can’t bear the thought of it.

#4 Mama Grizzly on 01.18.08 at 2:29 pm

(((Heather))) – I take it that you knew the Mom and the baby – I am so sorry…. it’s an incredibly sad story.

#5 Tricia on 01.18.08 at 5:47 pm

Is this something local. Is it in the paper. You bolg was touching.

#6 brambledoula on 01.20.08 at 7:57 pm

How are you holding up? let me know if you need anything.

#7 Pain « Newscoma on 01.22.08 at 12:06 am

[…] of the strongest ones I’ve seen in a long time. The backstory is over there, but I just want Heather to know that after meeting her and seeing what a lovely soul she is that there are many of us who […]

#8 Jamie on 01.22.08 at 1:06 am

I am so so sorry. I came over from Ivy’s post.

My heart is reeling for everyone touched by the loss of your friend and her baby.

#9 Klinde on 01.23.08 at 7:09 pm

Heather, I am so sorry to hear this. I came over from Newscoma’s post as I have been MIA from the blogosphere for a while.

** Hugs **


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