Did You Hear

Wednesday morning a chorus of angels broke out into the Hallelujah Chorus. I opened my eyes and listened to the strains of the hymn as it slowly dawned on me that I had not moved since falling asleep the evening before. It has been a very long time, years, since I have had the luxury of not being awoken in the middle of the night. Someone in the peanut gallery may say, “But you didn’t have children at the conference back in April!” Ah, that person has never been a nursing mother or they would know about having to pump thanks to being in tune with the baby’s cycle, even when said baby is ninety miles away.

For over five years I have been pregnant, nursing, or both. I am ready to have my body back and to move on to watching our family grow rather than actively fueling its growth. Ellie is weaning and only the tiniest part of me feels a touch of regret. The rest of me will dance out to the dumpster and gleefully throw away my nursing bras with their snarled elastic and bent hooks.

Please don’t misunderstand, breastfeeding is a beautiful thing. I am glad to have done this for them, but I’m also glad to have the freedom of once again belonging more to myself.


#1 Mama Grizzly on 09.19.08 at 8:57 am

You have my support! I totally understand how you feel about wanting your body back and I was so glad too when my daughter stopped nursing – I finally felt like my body was now MINE again.. It’s a wonderful thing what you’ve done! ..

#2 Angela on 09.19.08 at 9:39 am

You know that does mean that you will have to go….do I dare say it….SHOPPING. Those old bras you once thought were great just won’t fit the same anymore:(

#3 candice on 09.20.08 at 7:23 pm

Brewer weaned himself at 14 months. I was willing to go to 2 years, but he was over it. That was very nice!

#4 Holly on 09.21.08 at 6:46 pm

Oh how nice! I can’t believe lil miss is that big already!

#5 Margo on 09.23.08 at 8:02 pm

I feel like I’m on both sides of this at the same time…Happy to not have one on my boob (sorry – my red neck is showing), but I’m also far enough removed to miss it.

I’m really happy for you though. Sweet Relief!!! 🙂

#6 Merrick on 11.04.08 at 1:29 pm

Grant you just made yourself something to do with it,

#7 Kayly on 11.27.08 at 9:18 am

Your site is very very cool !! I love it 🙂 Respect !,

#8 Preston on 11.27.08 at 2:43 pm

Very good site, greate content !!,

#9 Shyla on 11.27.08 at 6:00 pm

A fantastic site, and brilliant effort. A great piece of work.,

Leave a Comment